Happy Birthday America!

We celebrated America’s 238th Birthday yesterday at the annual Santa Barbara Rescue Mission BBQ & Carnival.  The residents of the recovery program, staff and volunteers hosted a parking lot full of homeless guests who enjoyed a delicious bbq (I especially loved the pasta salad!), some fun ol’ fashioned carnival games and a bountiful raffle of helpful items. Rudy had run of the place in his walker and joyfully greeted the guests.  Luckily our friend Dale captured a bit of the fun…

Rudy arm wrestling with a guest…and winning!  Ha Ha  Go, Rudy, Go!
Rudy arm wrestling with a guest…and winning! Ha Ha Go, Rudy, Go!
High five
High five!

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Happy Day!
Happy Day
Rudy got tp'd later in the day at the fireworks show by our neighbor Jannele...
Rudy got tp’d later in the day at the fireworks show by our neighbor Jannele…
We avoid the firework crowds and watch from a parking lot across the street!  Yeah, we're kinda lame that way but all had fun nonetheless!
We avoid the firework crowds and watch from a parking lot across the street! Yeah, we’re kinda lame that way but all had fun nonetheless!

We hope you had a happy day too!  Happy July everyone!

Full Metal Jacket

Thanks for praying us through a loaded day yesterday. Given the haste with which this cath was scheduled–and some of the past experiences we’ve had of cath results being a kick to the gut–we were a bit apprehensive leading into things and probably even steeling ourselves for some tough news.

Our anxiety was heightened by the discussions during pre-op. The primary goal was to see if there were any things that could be done to lessen the strain on Rudy’s enlarged heart. Signs pointed to the coarctation in his aorta (fancy doctor-speak for a tight bend which restricted flow–like a stubborn kink in a gardenhose). The team has previously tried to correct this by inflating with a ballon, but the bend acted like a crease and it popped back. The way to fix it would be to insert a metal stent, which is common in adult patients, but Dr. Dan couldn’t think of a patient as young as Rudy in which he had ever done it. The main problem is “getting the equipment to the jobsite”. The large stent and catheter they would need to do the job would need to be threaded up the femoral artery from his leg and there was concern it just wouldn’t fit. Additionally (and admittedly a bit disheartening) is the fact that the left femoral artery is Rudy’s last un-occluded path to his heart.  Even the most skillful intervention creates scarring and an artery can only be used a limited number of times before it becomes impassable, leaving more complicated surgical cut-ins as the only option. So the team needed to weigh whether any intervention was worth that cost, but they wouldn’t really know for sure until they got in and assessed things.

Needless to say our heads were spinning more than usual as we headed downstairs–but at least it took away our appetites and kept us from stress eating our way through the waiting. Good company and a lot of drop-bys from docs and nurses helped to pass the time. We got a progress call from the lab nurse around 3 hours in that they had stented the Sano shunt (which had narrowed significantly) and were finishing up–no action on the aorta. Not bad news, but we kind of prepared ourselves for a “there was really nothing much we could do” conference.

Just a few minutes later we got paged again and Dr. Dan was on the phone rattling through the positives: heart function looks better than everyone feared (perhaps the reason we suspect they rushed us in), they were able to open up the Sano to its original size, and now they had just finished a consult with Rudy’s surgeon and did feel that they should attempt to stent the aorta.

The significance of the moment only hits me in hindsight, but almost unnoticeably things shifted into the quiet intensity that one can suddenly find themselves in in the cardiac world. Just as Dan told me that Brian Reemtsen (surgeon) was coming coming out to speak to us, Brian stepped around the corner. We had a brief three-way exchange with Dan in my ear and Brian in front of me to make sure I understood what was happening and that they were in agreement. Dan finished with, “we will stop at any point if we feel it isn’t safe, but do we have your permission to proceed?” Of course, I agreed but it was only later that it struck me that this was not a routine procedure.  Even with the global consents we had signed in pre-op, there was something about what they were attempting that they felt like they needed specific consent for.

Dr. Brian spent time with Trish and I expressing encouragement over Rudy’s condition and that, given the strength of the heart muscle, it was very worthwhile to attempt a step like this to reduce the strain.  While any future surgical course is still unclear, successfully addressing the coarctation would have to happen first. Brian certainly wasn’t promising anything specific, but there was a note of wonder that we might be talking about that someday.

We had a bit more to wait before Dr. Dan showed up to give his report and walk through the imagery. He was very upbeat and told us right away that the aortic stent could not have turned out better. The arc had narrowed to 9mm and they were able to insert and expand a stent to 16mm–the size of an adult aorta–which means there is no pressure gradient across it and the blood flows freely!

As the nurse told us over the phone they were also able to fully rehab the Sano shunt to its original 5mm diameter. It had shrunk down to 2.2mm at it’s smallest point, but they used multiple stents and balloons to get it back to its original diameter. As this is supposed to be the primary means Rudy’s heart has to oxygenate his blood, it’s very good to have it free and clear (and gives us chills to think how tiny it had become). Dr. Brian also commented on how amazing that little shunt has performed–he hasn’t seen one last so long and serve a patient as well as Rudy’s has. That could raise concern that we are well past borrowed time, but Dan said he’s now given the Sano and the aorta “full metal jackets” by lining them with stents which will keep them stable, open and clear for a long time.

Dr. Dan was very pleased, but also wanted to get back to Rudy as he was very concerned about the femoral artery. He said they would watch that very carefully overnight as a bleed there would be a major issue.  As you can already tell, the time in recovery went really smoothly and Rudy was peaceful and content to lie still like he was supposed to for the rest of the day and slept through the night.   Among the more significant developments was that his 02 sats were consistently in the high 80s (compared to the low to mid 70s where they’ve been of late.  Since this was his first post-trache cath, it was also the first time he was intubated, so he had a scratchy throat and barely spoke above a whisper–until the moment he saw his big sibs at home had him squealing with his trademark joy.

We’ve learned to navigate this journey and all its big uncertainties by looking for reasons to celebrate and embracing them.  That’s what this day meant for us.  The big questions didn’t get answered and the major issues didn’t get resolved–but who knows if and when they ever will.  For now, we’ll celebrate Rudy’s armor-plated arteries and the positive step they are.

 

Family FaceTime makes hospital stays more fun--but nothing's better than being together in person again!
Family FaceTime makes hospital stays more fun–but nothing’s better than being together in person again!

Settled In

Rudy cruised through the PACU and we made it to our room after just about three hours. Dr. Dan came and got me between cases as he felt it was important to support the USA and watch the World Cup.

Noticed the familiar room next door was empty too so I snuck in to check the inside of one of the cabinets:

We’ve come a long way. Quite a journey!

In Recovery

Rudy ended up having a four-hour heart cath. Longer than everyone expected because of what the team saw when they got in there. Dr. Dan and Dr. Harake saw a couple places where stents would ease the workload on the heart and were successful in doing so. More details later but for now we’re waiting it out in PACU until they give Rudy a room tonight. His first word when we got to him was “UP!” so we’ll see how successful we are at getting him to lie still like he’s supposed to. For now, the World Cup seems to be doing the trick!

Home, Sweet, Home

Our home is quite a bit sweeter now that the big sibs are home safely from their trip to KS!  All reports are of a great trip to see Gma Jo and the Wilson cousins!  I’m thrilled they had a nice time but also really glad to have them home as is Rudy who was too excited to take a nap this afternoon.  🙂

We’ll have Monday to get everyone settled and unpacked and then Rolf, Livy and I will head down to UCLA on Tuesday with Rudy for his cath.  We’ve had a couple of little hiccups this past week with a short seizure early Thursday morning (3am) and a shiner on his left eye from a spill on his motorized bike today!  He’s happy and no worse for the wear but he sure is keeping us on our toes as we prepare for this cath.  🙂  We’ll post an update on Tuesday…as always, thank you for your prayers!

Chillin' with Dad watching the World Cup!
Chillin’ with Dad watching the World Cup!
Chillin' with the Black Sheep Harley Club at church!  Rudy was pretty proud of his hog among the lineup of Harleys...
Chillin’ with the Black Sheep Harley Club at church! Rudy was pretty proud of his hog among the lineup of Harleys…
…he got a little street cred among the Black Sheep when he tipped his hog and got himself a nice shiner!!!
…he got a little street cred among the Black Sheep when he tipped his hog and got himself a nice shiner!!!
Welcome Home Big Sibs!
Welcome Home Big Sibs!

Clinic Update

Passing time with Daddy in clinic...
Passing time with Daddy in clinic…

We made it home from L.A. just in time to take a dip in the pool before supper.  Rudy is eager to get in the water after a full day buckled in his wheelchair.  Our visit to the heart clinic today was relatively quick…Rudy made quick work of his extensive echo exam by sitting still and cooperating nicely.  We talked with Nurse Flo (the transplant coordinator) over her long list of routine questions and then we waited for Dr. Alejos.  He was needed at the hospital and couldn’t get away so we ended up seeing Dr. Reardon (a.k.a. Dr. Leigh) instead.  We don’t normally consult with Dr. Leigh but he was a fellow in 2008/2009 when Rudy was hospitalized and is quite familiar with Rudy’s history.  Although we would have really liked to talk to Dr. Alejos, it was fun to see Dr. Leigh again after all these years and hear him “oooh” and “aaaah” in amazement over how far Rudy has come.  One thing I like about Dr. Leigh is he’s not afraid to talk about the “what ifs” and he tells it like he sees it.  He took a look at the echo images and confirmed what Dr. Harake told us last week…that Rudy has moved from “mild” to “moderate” heart failure…but feels Rudy is still a ways off from being in “severe” heart failure which would be the next phase in the spectrum.  He did see a narrowing of the arch which he believes may need an angioplasty during next week’s cath but ultimately that will be Drs. Harake and Levi’s call once they get in there.  There really wasn’t a whole lot more Dr. Leigh could tell us.  We knew we wouldn’t walk away from today’s appt with any new revelations or game plan but we’re still left  feeling discouraged over the fact that there is no neat and tidy action step that will prevent Rudy’s heart from failing.

We talked a little about the purpose of clinic…how some patients are there for the transplant process while others are there simply to manage their heart failure and others still are there, like today, to transition from being pediatric cardiac patients to adult management and care.  It was interesting to see the young adults who were there today navigating that very crucial transition to adult cardiac care…once again, Rolf and I walked away from clinic with a glimpse into the giant picture that makes our little corner of the “cardiac world” seem very small…no less significant or serious, just that Rudy is one of many, MANY diverse situations and needs.  Honestly, I don’t know how the heart clinic Drs and NPs don’t leave work every day overwhelmed…I feel overwhelmed for them.  We’re scheduled to head back to clinic in 6 months.

So, our sights are now set on the cath next Tuesday.  Although Rudy has had close to ten heart caths in the past, this one will be different for him. Because he is no longer trached, he’ll have to be intubated which is uncomfortable and will leave him with a wicked sore throat when he wakes up from anesthesia.  😦  A trip to Baskin Robbins may be in order!  🙂  Thank you all for your continued prayers…we are forever grateful for, humbled by  and in awe of the love that surrounds our family.

Glad to be done and headed home...
Glad to be done and headed home…

Focusing on right now (or at least trying to…)

Since getting the UCLA appointments booked for tomorrow and next Tuesday, Trish and I both admit to an undercurrent of dread and anxiety.  The fact that both the Transplant Clinic and Heart Cath only got booked late last week–really short-notice when we’re used to dealing with months of lead time–minimizes the amount of time for brooding but can also create new reasons for worry.  Is there some reason why they feel it necessary to see Rudy so quickly?  The office mentioned summer vacation schedules but even with this, you can’t help but wonder if there’s something everyone’s concerned about that couldn’t wait until the fall.  Or maybe they just had a cancellation and figured they’d squeeze us in cuz they like us and we should stop over-thinking things…

So we made it through the weekend as much as possible by focusing on the here and now–which, when I think about it, is how we’ve learned to navigate life.  Rudy’s heart condition and it’s prognosis is always there, even if we only become more focused on it as there’s an appointment or procedure looming.  But life goes on with all it’s mundane beauty and simple celebrations of the ordinary–made only more moving when we consider the backdrop.

On this note, we had a pretty big celebration yesterday evening when Rudy figured out something HUGE.  Too bad the big sibs weren’t here for it–they may not be able to catch him by the time they’re home!

Pretty easy to focus on what’s going on right now when it’s something like this.  Thanks for praying for our time at UCLA tomorrow.

Schedule Change

Rolf and I got the big kids off to KS Thursday evening and headed home from LAX with our long list of “to dos” we hoped to get done while they’re gone. We no sooner settled in to the quiet house when UCLA called to reschedule Rudy’s heart clinic appt from July 3rd to June 24th…this Tuesday!!!! So we’ve adjusted our schedules to accommodate a full day in LA at clinic.

Shortly after getting the call from clinic, Dr. Harake’s office called to confirm a heart cath on July 1st, again, at UCLA! So grateful for a spot in the queue but it does put my stomach in knots!!

We’ll work on the logistics of it all this next week…stay tuned.

"Bye, Bye Wah Wah"
“Bye, Bye Wah Wah”
"Bye, Bye I-ya"
“Bye, Bye I-ya”
"Bye, Bye Mackey"
“Bye, Bye Mackey”

Missing the big sibs!