Holding Our Breath

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We continue to mourn the loss of CTICU friend Logan and anticipate a beautiful celebration of his life this Thursday.  Rayme and Brett have shown such courage and vulnerability during this tremendously difficult time.  I know they appreciate our ongoing prayers.

It has been hard to know how to celebrate Rudy’s progress this week…we were pleased to find out at Friday’s well-child visit that Rudy finally registers on the growth chart.  At 18 lbs 8 oz and 28 inches long he ranks in the 3rd percentile for weight and the 5th percentile for height.  Dr. Abbott (pediatrician) is happy with Rudy’s general condition and feels  he doesn’t need to see Rudy again for 3 months…unless he gets sick.  Rudy is on the priority list for the H1N1 vaccination but the shipment is late in arriving to our Dr’s office so we wait…and are going through gallons of hand sanitizer in the meantime. 

I admit that the confidence we’ve felt in Rudy’s progress the past few weeks has been challenged in the wake of Logan’s sudden death.  The big exhale I felt after the pulmonologist’s report has shifted to holding my breath again.  The Elliott’s loss is a brutal reminder that we can’t protect these little ones from everything…for Logan, a virus turned deadly…as hard as we try to control Rudy’s environment for his protection, ultimately he is in God’s hands…just as he was in the hospital. 

I’m not even going to try to figure this one out…just please pray that God will shower Brett, Rayme and their family with comfort and direction as they wade (or maybe it feels more like “drudge”) through their grief.  No matter how you slice it, it’s heavy!  Thank you dear friends…

I got to hold Logan last year in the CTICU before I got to hold Rudy...
I got to hold Logan last year in the CTICU before I got to hold Rudy...

11 thoughts on “Holding Our Breath

  1. We are praying for Logan’s family and friends.

    We are happy with Rudy’s good report! Keep up the great progress Rudy. We all continue to pray for you. Hope to see you one of these days if you ever venture back down to San Diego.
    Hugs and kisses.

  2. Congrats Rudy on makng the charts! Praying for your continued growth and strength! Praying too for Logan’s family this week.

  3. Understandable, we all hold our breathe, take each day as it comes; prayers for strength for all of you and especially Logan’s family at this time and the days ahead, Nick’s Grandma

  4. it’s nice to hear and see that Rudy is finally growing into his cheeks. He looks so awesome. thank you so much trish for your kind words. I am so happy you posted that picture of you and Logan. It seems like years ago. xoxo

  5. I pray that you can enjoy today, and that, despite the sobering realities, there are regular moments of belly laughter, love, and peace.


  6. Blessings on LOgans Family. May this little angel look down on them and give them peace.
    Blessings on you all and our Rudy.
    and Opa Bussi Oma

  7. Just when you gain your confidence in normalcy…something shakes it and you feel that uncertainty in life again. I’m sure Logan’s family is so grateful for the support you have shared in their lives. Logan’s little footprint will be left on many hearts.

    It is wonderful to see Rudy is making the growth chart…but really…he made our top ten chart ages ago! Thanks for the birthday treats…the kids love them!

  8. We rejoice with you in Rudy’s progress and also grieve with Logan’s family. What a tough journey this is for you families. May God wrap his loving arms around all of you.

  9. Oh, I am so sad for the loss of your friend. It must make for a tough journey to have to hear that kind of news. We pray for love and growth and continued progress for Rudy and for God’s best for him and the Geylings! So sorry for Logan’s family.

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