It’s Monday just after 9pm and we’re trying to come to terms with a couple setbacks. While the day started out with the potentiality of Rudy coming off the ventilator by this evening we’re back to an indefinite timeline. Early on, the team decided not to rush things and wanted to see what another day of sprints would do. Rudy made it through the first one fine, but didn’t seem to recover well. Only 30 minutes into his second sprint, his O2 saturation was dropping too low and CO2 was getting higher. These remained out of bounds after they put him back on the ventilator and his blood pressure was consistently low and different measures weren’t taking much effect. We’re coming to learn that the number of people in the room and the frequency with which they come and go is an indicator that they are watching something closely. One has to fight the temptation to bombard them with too many questions as they work to get an understanding of what’s going on.
Just before dinner, Dr. Abel told us that they suspect they are dealing with another infection. Their worst fear is that it’s in the blood which would mean a 3 week course of antibiotics and certainly more delay in the weaning off the ventilator. We spent some time wondering if this was “two steps up and three back” or “three up and two back” but either way it’s a setback and that just plain sucks (sorry, short on eloquence at the moment). Physically, Rudy looks much better than he did during last Monday’s episode. He’s been wide away all day, which could be because he’s working so hard to get oxygen. Thankfully, he hasn’t been having any of the silent tantrums–I can only stand so many of those. But his eyes jump about quite a bit which can be read as panic, but that might just be our frame of mind at the moment.
So tonight we pray for peace. For Rudy, that he would be calm and be able to sleep a deep unpanicked sleep; that he would be protected from infection and that all the numbers on the gauges would stay where they should be. For us, we ask for that same peace as we deal with so many things we can’t control–from Rudy’s condition to the indefinite timeframe this journey has for our family.