My Dad’s 21-month battle with brain cancer took a sudden turn for the worse this week and I’m making arrangements to fly home. We found out last week that his treatment is no longer effective and the cancer is spreading fast so my folks met with home hospice in preparation for when they reached the need for hospice care. An unexpected fall on Sunday evening led to hemorrhaging of the tumor and paralysis of his left side. Although the ER doctors doubted he would survive the night, Dad stabilized by Monday morning and was alert…joking with my nieces and nephews when they came to see him. It has taken us a few days to work out the details on our end but I’m freed up to go home on Friday and stay through next Tuesday. Fortunately, the big kids are scheduled to fly to Alabama to visit some of Rolf’s family on Friday and thanks to Rolf and a handful of nurse friends, Rudy’s care will be covered here at home! Rudy had his monthly cardiology appointment yesterday and his heart status has not changed…he remains stable which was confirmation for my heart that I can leave.
Of course my prayers are for Dad’s comfort and peace…I’d love to make it in time to hug him and sing for him in person but he began experiencing pain today, as expected in this process, and is now sedated on pain medication. Although they talked on Monday about sending Dad home with hospice care, the plan now is to keep him at the hospital in Lawrence. I’m comforted by the fact that my brothers are with my Mom and Dad…by the sweet phone conversations I’ve had with my Dad this week…and so deeply grateful for the family trip we were able to make to Kansas over spring break!! God has been very gracious to us and His peace fills my heart. Please pray for that peace to blanket my Dad; for my Mom, brothers & sister-in-law as they walk these hours/days with my Dad and for my precious family as we’re spread all over this next week. In times like these I just want to gather all my chicks and circle the wagons and instead I’m sending my big kids to the other coast and leaving my little halfheart behind for 5 days…
I’ve been reminded all week of Philippians 4:4-7…verses we shared at Rudy’s dedication and of deep comfort for me the last 21 months. Here’s a paraphrase:
“Delight yourself in the Lord, yes, and find your joy in Him.
Be known for your gentleness and never forget the nearness of our God.
And don’t worry – whatever is going to come.
Just tell God every detail and the peace of God that no one understands will come to you.
No, don’t worry. Just tell Him every detail and His peace will come to you.”