Six Months

Today marks 6 months since Rudy passed away.  Rudy might have been small in stature and limited in his physical and cognitive abilities but his presence was so big.  He filled whatever space he was in and I’ve said many times in the last few months that losing Rudy was like losing a small dinner party.  His absence cuts so deep and has changed the landscape of our space forever.  To say I miss him isn’t sufficient but I just can’t capture the depth of my longing in words today…only in groans.

‘Love you deeply Rudy!  Your joy and enthusiasm continue to inspire us… may you experience the love behind our longing today!


Rolf captures it well in the tribute he posted on social media this morning:

Six months 
of silence so deafening
Of an ache deeper than words
Only because we never knew smiles could be that big, 
laughter could be that full,
and any moment could contain such bottomless joy.
I love you, Rudy.

12 thoughts on “Six Months

  1. I felt your deep sorrow today. I know the pains of losing a loved one and there are really no words. As the tears flow today find comfort in the fact that he is filling the large space of Heaven with that enthusiasm! Prayed for each of you by name this morning. XO

  2. Before I realized it was 6 months today I saw a picture of him and thought, “I can’t believe he is gone!”…..and I cant imagine all the many places, Rudy’s sweet and fun presence is absent!!!

  3. My heart is crying with yours. It doesn’t seem possible that this much time has passed by.
    Tight hugs and prayers today.

  4. I think it would take an ocean to fill the empty spaces Rudy’s passing left in so many. But the ocean of joy Rudy brought overshadows the loss. The yin and yang of life, loss, grief. Trish and Rolf, Your words are always beautiful and so spiritual, where i know you must find ongoing strength. Love you all.

  5. I’m so sorry. No words can fully convey or help with the loss yoinhave experienced. My love and prayers to you and the family.

  6. I miss hearing the adventures of Rudy boy and it saddens me to see the sadness he has left behind after bringing such joy to everyone.

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